just because not everyday is sunday, not everytime we play at tp would be a fine one.
today's an example, i nearly broke down if eunice had not said, "don't care about the score alr, if we're gonna run, we'll run tgt. now just concentrate on getting the ball back and defence."

for me, it's self disappointment.
you know you've succeed a day, when you've done smth you're proud of or smth you did better than the last or maybe even an improvement in the team. but for today, it's none.

rebound wasn't good, i shouted at them cause men-to-men defence was screwed, instead of encouraging the team i was negatively affected by the whole situation myself, wth am i the v-cap. plus the earlier probs we had in the afternoon while talking in the canteen, now we're pathetically left with 6 confirmed team members with lc wrist injured, which then leaves us a nice 5 for friendly matches with no substitutes. what am i suppose to say or do.

then it comes to coming up with the trng days.
trng on mon, wed, fri means we've gotta train with the guys if not with only 5 of us and if any have gotta leave early(like eunice's osle stuffs or lc some other stuffs), what are we gonna do with less than 5 players? continue doing figure8 for the whole session? i think it's only a waste of time. but yet, only on those days that the alumni will come down to play and since we've been trng at tp, i knw somehow ms tang hasn't been really happy with it cause i think its a tradition in nyjc that the seniors will be back to play ball and at the same time, a bonding time for them plus good opponents for us.

and the thing that we trng with the guys not only wastes our time but their time too.
cause we're obviously using different size balls, and lesser body contact plus it's just different playing with them. it totally messes up the whole session when coach has to split it up here and there and you just see the disadvantages. it's just isn't as beneficial as when we are playing with the same gender. but then again it's when we're trng in school that the seniors can come back and the only thing is to train with the guys first.

so left with us trng at tp on tues and thurs but its just inevitable feeling that we're like affecting their trng session, yes you may say more ppl train better but i'm just afraid they may feel that they shld train as a team but why are we always there. sometimes, i really just hope coach will have his full time for us also. and now, we're even going to the extend of trng with ms tang's outside team on sunday.

aiyah, with so little people on our team now and people gg everywhere for the hols(eunice to yunnan for her osle trip, pl to melbourne, lc back to m'sia, so it's just left with me and pris and hq?!), i seriously dunno how or what we're gonna train for next year A'div. i'm not blaming you all for gg overseas, it's just me being real frustrated. hais. are we gonna do anything about it? i'm seriously in need of players down at nyjc. next yr J1s? yes, we need you guys BADLY.

today just ain't my day LAH.

the holidays ain't our time to play too.
with block test just on the 8th week when sch reopens, i've seriously gotta go through and buck up on my studies especially maths and physics. i wanna have that motivation and determination to at least get a decent grade for these 2. and know what, the smart econs department just gave us another 3000words report to write and another presentation to practice when fucking pw has finally been over and done with. and the soft copy is to be handed in on the first day when sch reopens. wow, innovative eh, claiming it's to replace a lecture test. seriously can't roll my eyes more.

but yet everytime i think i'm suffocating to death with trngs at least twice a week, meeting up to do this freaking econs proj, planning for bball camp and bucking up with my studies, i think of the others.
like eunice who has her studies to revise and her osle trip where she has gotta go back to sch everyday for these few wks, plus trngs to continue with and of course the econs proj, i think she's supergirl, really.
and xz who still has her internship(9-5 from mon-fri) and her cca syf to plan for next year, plus revision and her chinese proj and econs proj.

so you see, just a reminder to anyone of you who's considering a jc life(since the O's have officially ended today), please be prepared to commit and pull your hair for the next 2 years.


ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!